I don't want

I don’t want men

Who smile like sin;

Their charming smile,

Trapping you in their webs,

Sending my heart into a frenzy

Pumping my veins with too much blood, A little more

And they will explode.

I don’t want boys

With hearts of a rock star;

Their rules of living on the edge

Consist of breaking my heart and over dosing

Staying on the run from the life they despised

They forget who put them there.

I don’t want girls

Who follow the latest trends;

She’s nothing but a heart breaker;

NEW FLASH: Being a Lesbian is in,

I am nothing but a new purse around her wrist

Six months is all we have

Before I’m thrown away

I don’t want women

Who want forever;

I’m too young to promise you never

I could break your heart, With

Forever cold feet

And a damaged heart

If I promised you forever I would be just like them.

So for now hold your breath, I

Promise to welcome you into my heart

Just wait a little longer.

Drafted for so long I don't remember if i wrote it or I got it from somewhere...?

            You left me alone as you flew to the heavens I turned my head away,

            I was filled with hate as you abandoned me there that night.

            Somehow you stand beside me tonight, I try to hold your hand

            Yet it vanishes. Unable to grab your warmth I want to cry.

            I was wrong. Angels should fly. I realize that now.

Don’t know why I keep writing about you when I know that you are someone my words won’t reach

I give myself three days to feel better,
or else I swear I'll drive off a fucking cliff.
Because if I can't learn to make myself feel better,
then how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?

I fall in love with anything self-destructive

Sometimes I wake up with my head in my throat and my heart in my hands.

"You disappear so completely into your head sometimes," he said. "I wish I could follow you."

Im Going Insane

Staring into a broken reflection

of tarnished imperfection,

marred with syringes and drugs

each pill breaks me down like a bug

reaching my limit till I collapse.

Therapy increases thoughts of suicide,

realizing your promises were lies.

Distortion rakes my mind into falling apart

already failing, I've lost my heart,

only so much pain can be endured.

I think I'm going insane

because dying here in shame

I have pushed away everyone I know,

and having nothing to show

I'm finally letting go.

-juliet sinclarie

So is it my turn yet...?

It took my this long to realize that I was the only one when felt lonely without you. Don't you dare lie to me. I don't want to hear the sincerity in your voice. It's all a scam. You are a scam. If you ever felt as lonely as I did you would have come looking for me, like I did for you. Yet you sit there laughing, carelessly beside you friend.

I was the only one with a hole in my chest.

Is it okay for me to believe...
                      ....everything is going to be okay?
       Is it safe to let my insides come out?
                                                                                         I'm scared.
                                                 terrified.
What happens if nothing is okay?
                                              What will happen to me then?

            Who will love me?
                           cherish me?
                           loath me?
                           be there for me?

I... I... I'm scared of being left alone in the darkness.

Your wicked soul is my everything.

Quick Poem.

I just came up with this off the top of my head… Don’t expect it to be good.

I’m just a bird

held captive by a place called home

I’m caged away

under lock and key

no way for me to escape

so until it’s time

I’ll just lie here and rest.

I dream of the day I’ll be set free

to fly into the blue sky

I’ll travel high and far

see the world from up above

and although I’m scared of heights

I’ll take a breath before my flight

pray I’ll be alright

and jump.

Crooked Fingers
Crooked Toes
Crooked Nose
Crooked Soul

"A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the other's crazy?" Albert Einstein

I found out what we learn when we die
I found out the truth is all a big lie
I found out that words are hard to describe
I’ll tell you what we know now
It’s we run or we hide.-Bathroom stall

Feelings are tough. Memories are good.

wrote this last year while i was sick

Dandy lion

my shooting star

grant me a wish

I long to see.

I wish for happiness

and love.

It wasn’t long

before my wish came true.

Adored by many

loved by all.

Nothing but happiness blew my way.

I was in heaven,

or at least I think.

I thought life couldn't get better,

then the rain began to pour.

I ran inside and dove under the covers.

My eyes opened

and I realized it was all a dream.

That moment you realize you know enough Spanish (and have Google translate bookmarked) that you can read a full Spanish novel.

Ahh, the joy. :)

You are the prettiest thing ever just like the sea, but when I look deeper all I see is darkness.