So is it my turn yet...?

It took my this long to realize that I was the only one when felt lonely without you. Don't you dare lie to me. I don't want to hear the sincerity in your voice. It's all a scam. You are a scam. If you ever felt as lonely as I did you would have come looking for me, like I did for you. Yet you sit there laughing, carelessly beside you friend.

I was the only one with a hole in my chest.

Is it okay for me to believe...
                      ....everything is going to be okay?
       Is it safe to let my insides come out?
                                                                                         I'm scared.
                                                 terrified.
What happens if nothing is okay?
                                              What will happen to me then?

            Who will love me?
                           cherish me?
                           loath me?
                           be there for me?

I... I... I'm scared of being left alone in the darkness.

Your wicked soul is my everything.