Im Going Insane

Staring into a broken reflection

of tarnished imperfection,

marred with syringes and drugs

each pill breaks me down like a bug

reaching my limit till I collapse.

Therapy increases thoughts of suicide,

realizing your promises were lies.

Distortion rakes my mind into falling apart

already failing, I've lost my heart,

only so much pain can be endured.

I think I'm going insane

because dying here in shame

I have pushed away everyone I know,

and having nothing to show

I'm finally letting go.

-juliet sinclarie

So is it my turn yet...?

It took my this long to realize that I was the only one when felt lonely without you. Don't you dare lie to me. I don't want to hear the sincerity in your voice. It's all a scam. You are a scam. If you ever felt as lonely as I did you would have come looking for me, like I did for you. Yet you sit there laughing, carelessly beside you friend.

I was the only one with a hole in my chest.

Is it okay for me to believe...
                      ....everything is going to be okay?
       Is it safe to let my insides come out?
                                                                                         I'm scared.
                                                 terrified.
What happens if nothing is okay?
                                              What will happen to me then?

            Who will love me?
                           cherish me?
                           loath me?
                           be there for me?

I... I... I'm scared of being left alone in the darkness.

Your wicked soul is my everything.

Quick Poem.

I just came up with this off the top of my head… Don’t expect it to be good.

I’m just a bird

held captive by a place called home

I’m caged away

under lock and key

no way for me to escape

so until it’s time

I’ll just lie here and rest.

I dream of the day I’ll be set free

to fly into the blue sky

I’ll travel high and far

see the world from up above

and although I’m scared of heights

I’ll take a breath before my flight

pray I’ll be alright

and jump.

Crooked Fingers
Crooked Toes
Crooked Nose
Crooked Soul